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All-O-Gistics by The Descendants
So today was upsetting. Sort of this swirling thing outside of me, that reaches into my little thing. Suddenly it felt like it upset my little rowboat. I just allowed myself to get sucked into something, and I knew from the beginning it was a mistake…but we make choices. We make choices and they allow people to come into our lives, and we just can’t stop it. I have made this mistake so many times, and repeated it over the years that it is one of those patterns you hear shrinks talking about.
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Marcus and I are not communicating again. I dont know what to make of it, but I know that I am doing my best. I think he is overwhelmed in so many ways, and I think that is what is going on. But it is a fundamental problem.
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At work I am exhausted. I think that I can’t trust anyone there. Maybe the lady at the desk. But I just get this feeling like things are afoot, that people are plotting and manuevering. I know what I am doing, I know why I want to do it, and I just need to spend time with my boss and get him to pay attention. But I dont think I can. I think people are trying to gain his attention, trying to manuever into my project for their own benefit. Or move my project out. There was a moment today when I was walking out the door. Just throwing the project away, and going back to the resume work.
We are amping up another part of the project, a part of my role. I am excited about the whole thing. It is a strange thing. I feel good, but like I said I think the building is in real trouble. Not really, but I think that the building is in a pretty negative place.
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Tonight I was reading the Bible for a little while. Its fun, and in some ways inspiring, but contrary to what people project…its not like every sentence is profound. You gotta struggle through crap just like in every book. I had read a biography of Abraham Lincoln last week, and it talked about certain parts of the Bible made a pretty big impact on him. I wonder how it all played out back then, just how big was a Bible. It had to be massive. Lincoln’s innaguration is one of my favorite speeches of all time. The Better Angels of Our Nature is a line I keep coming back to in all of my writing. I repeat it often.
I think that the Lincoln book was good, but still I think the McCoullough book about Harry Truman was the best presidential bio I had read. Like Baldwin said, it made me feel like I was having breakfast each morning with Harry.
I think I might have to trim my ear hair. Especially in my left ear.
So the word counter says 1000 words. I am glad I wrote them, but I am going to go back and cut a big section out.
I will talk to you later. I saw Andrea today, and it literally just made me think of Laura. I live a rather public life, and I wonder if she sees my writing, or anything, and wants to talk to me. Kari said she has two kids, and all the rest, so that is the way it goes. But Lauara, so often in my head.
Going to go read, and fall asleep.
This weekend I am taking Wikinomics up north. I want to reread a few sections.
