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Daysleeper by REM
Damn your transcendental paralysis!…Bad Religion.
When I got back I felt so good about everything. I felt like I had made real peace with the issues that plagued me. I knew I wanted to live my life in a differant way than I had before. I saw that what I experienced was not fueling me, barely feeding me. Not even close to inspiring me. But it was experience I thought. I was wrong.
Not to be a hater, but I look around me…there are 100,000 people around here. I wonder where the artists are. What makes things push, what makes things pull. What sparks your interest? Who reads books like mine? Al should know…but he does not want to share.
Where are you? I think I need to move to Madison, move in with Charlie of the Better Musical Palatte than me, and court Wendy. Or I can take more unisom, and call it a day.
I feel good. I like my life, and now I gotta go find something each day to get me going.
I wonder about this stupid obsession with past girls. Is it just thinking about the familiar? I mean, the Laura thing is just nutty. She married some guy, had some kids, and is living a life I am sure…yet I have this fantasy that she is going to call me again, and we can get it started one more time.
I thought about Amanda the other day, actually for a few months. She went to the grad school I wanted to go to, but she went first. Now she is a Librarian at the UW. She has a pretty cool blog. I write her a letter every few years, and once I sent one. I got a honest response from her, and we all know that is not what I was looking for.
