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Guitar by Prince
Dogs run amok…
Its a strange two days. I need to be working on Abstinence and Cervical Cancer…but I can concentrate. I just cant. I think it is funny. I have thought about Jason tonight a few times, going to college late, or slower or whatever. Being this age, and learning. I look back, and I did not study at all in college. I do not think I progressed one bit, maybe in arrogance. I never cracked a book. Its an english degree, and I am pretty sure I read nothing in college. All of that time. Never read anything. I just went on some natural sense of talent, and whatever. I just wasted it, or at least that is what I think tonight.
When I look at the experience of someone like Dan, I just think that college could be so much more. I had a brilliant experience that was not based on classes, but really on the relationships I had with the teachers, and maybe the material. Maybe I did read something, I cant tell. I know I did not read Chaucer in college. I had that year long Chaucer class, and I never read it. I also failed Linguistics 101 twice, and backpacking, I failed that…because I forgot to drop it.
I am really fighting the depression. It is sort of amazing. I like that I know it ends, but I dislike that it leads to so many of these night sweating nights. Just sitting, with the paranoia, and the inability to stop. The desire to move, but not the desire to move anything. Just the desire to move.
And, my poop is a totally differant color. Which I am sure means I have a brain tumor. My poop is usually pretty dark in color. But, I have really been focused on water this week, and my poop is a much lighter shade of poop color. I am unsure as to why that has happened. But, I think that a lighter poop means that my colon is processing things better…or I am drinking paint in the middle of the night.
The Sigg water bottle is finally making its way into my life.
And Aquapods.
Henry is coming to Milwaukee. Its going to be nice. Though the shame of my weight wont be fun.
