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Daysleeper by REM
Damn your transcendental paralysis!…Bad Religion.
When I got back I felt so good about everything. I felt like I had made real peace with the issues that plagued me. I knew I wanted to live my life in a differant way than I had before. I saw that what I experienced was not fueling me, barely feeding me. Not even close to inspiring me. But it was experience I thought. I was wrong.
Not to be a hater, but I look around me…there are 100,000 people around here. I wonder where the artists are. What makes things push, what makes things pull. What sparks your interest? Who reads books like mine? Al should know…but he does not want to share.
Where are you? I think I need to move to Madison, move in with Charlie of the Better Musical Palatte than me, and court Wendy. Or I can take more unisom, and call it a day.
I feel good. I like my life, and now I gotta go find something each day to get me going.
I wonder about this stupid obsession with past girls. Is it just thinking about the familiar? I mean, the Laura thing is just nutty. She married some guy, had some kids, and is living a life I am sure…yet I have this fantasy that she is going to call me again, and we can get it started one more time.
I thought about Amanda the other day, actually for a few months. She went to the grad school I wanted to go to, but she went first. Now she is a Librarian at the UW. She has a pretty cool blog. I write her a letter every few years, and once I sent one. I got a honest response from her, and we all know that is not what I was looking for.
BuzzCast 10.12.06
I just realized that people might find this blog while looking at what I am listening to, expecting some comment about that whole thing. I realized this when I looked at Shot of Rhythm. He talks about the music he is listening to, and I think he is one of the best voices of music writing. I wish CE had check out what he wrote like. I think he is sort of the smart kid who has the greatest rock and roll collection, and knows it back and forth.
So I am posting this at one in the morning. I am leaving in about 8 hours. I have done nothing to get ready.
I have been going through some of the anarchist websites today. I think that they need to call themselves protest sites. I think that while the end product is in fact anarchy, but it is not the anarchy I know and hope for, the Bakunin model or idea. But then again, I think that access to information comes first. We cannot tear down the paper mill, or we dont get notebooks.
Did you read that? God am I tired?
My ego has been a huge problem these days. These days of despair.
I hope Kari got the job.
