Archive for the ‘baseball’ Category
Daysleeper by REM
Damn your transcendental paralysis!…Bad Religion.
When I got back I felt so good about everything. I felt like I had made real peace with the issues that plagued me. I knew I wanted to live my life in a differant way than I had before. I saw that what I experienced was not fueling me, barely feeding me. Not even close to inspiring me. But it was experience I thought. I was wrong.
Not to be a hater, but I look around me…there are 100,000 people around here. I wonder where the artists are. What makes things push, what makes things pull. What sparks your interest? Who reads books like mine? Al should know…but he does not want to share.
Where are you? I think I need to move to Madison, move in with Charlie of the Better Musical Palatte than me, and court Wendy. Or I can take more unisom, and call it a day.
I feel good. I like my life, and now I gotta go find something each day to get me going.
I wonder about this stupid obsession with past girls. Is it just thinking about the familiar? I mean, the Laura thing is just nutty. She married some guy, had some kids, and is living a life I am sure…yet I have this fantasy that she is going to call me again, and we can get it started one more time.
I thought about Amanda the other day, actually for a few months. She went to the grad school I wanted to go to, but she went first. Now she is a Librarian at the UW. She has a pretty cool blog. I write her a letter every few years, and once I sent one. I got a honest response from her, and we all know that is not what I was looking for.
Life Wasted by Pearl Jam
I fear the Bean. I really do. It just seems so much of it makes sense to me. She and my friend Jason have been together for like 100 years, and while I knew Jason before the Bean, I don't really remember Jason before the Bean. And while I have not seen Jason all that much after the Bean, I am pretty okay with that. Jason and I had our falling outs, and it all made sense to me. It bugs me that I go to Milwaukee often now, and am planning a return to college at UWM in about a year, and it would be good to see him then. But I think I earned the falling outs on my end.
The Bean is the thing. When I met the Bean I remember it well. I remember this horrid awkwardness in our social setting. I remember people getting all up in arms. Sides being taken. Blahty Blahty Blah.
Then I met the Bean, and it all made sense to me. She was striking in her prettiness, and her mind was so sharp. My cynical bullshit got in the way, and I thought to myself she was young…but now I think I was wrong, and she was right.
We talked for a bit, not a lot. But we talked about vegetarianism. So it was she who effectively planted that seed. Jackie tried, but I did not care about it then. The things Bean was saying were making total sense. I fought and fought it. I justified and all of that. I only at steak prepared this or that. It was all horseshit on my end.
Now I am vegetarian. I am loving it. My skin is a lot better. My body functions are a lot more direct. Go ahead and assume whatever you want about that comment.
Anyway…this is really about the Bean and baseball. Jason told me when we went and saw Social Distortion the last time that Bean has thought it all through. That he thought her brain was endless, and she has the ability to get to most of life on a cerebral level. We both thought that it was strange, but he just laughed and said he loved her. And it was cool. I think it came up in regards to like swimming or bungee jumping.
So today I was looking at Jasons blog, and there is a really nice picture of Bean at a baseball game, wearing a baseball cap. I have that cap. I fought wearing it. I fought baseball.
Dont think I am exalting the Bean, I mean she is nuts as well. The Nalgene thing sort of freaks me out.
But it is neat to see the world through her eyes. How were a Brewer…we live here.
I wish Bean was a live music person, I would love for her to see the Rollins Band this summer with me.
Heres to the Bean.
